It's CD6 and I had my HSG today. I was so nervous about the contrast dye and my allergies, but everything went well, despite needing a speculum change mid-procedure. ;) I was rather red and a teensy bit itchy afterwards (little did I know he'd be cleaning my cervix with Iodine!), but I took a benadryl and felt much better. I think what really did it was the Prednisone (steroid) 12 and 2 hours before the procedure.
We've decided to continue on with the medicated cycles and do TI, and our RE is supportive of that. I had been feeling ready to give up, but seeing as I've only ovulated 4 times in the almost 19 months off bcp, I think I just need to have more patience. ;) Especially since one of those 4 ovulations resulted in our angel. We will be holding off on the IUIs until this summer, and I'm hoping and praying we won't be needing them. :)
That's the news for now, I should be going in for an u/s soon, so I'll update when I can. :)
23 February 2010
19 February 2010
18 February 2010
Cycle #13 aka: my ute can suck it. my ovaries, too.
I think this post title explains it all, no?
Right now we're undecided whether or not we'll take a break cycle or do a medicated TI cycle. Either way I think we're done with IUIs until Ben is on summer break. It's simply too stressful worry about how the schedule falls with his work. We'll have to decide by tomorrow morning, so I'll post again later.
For now, I'm searching for that silver lining in the big, m-fing stormcloud.
Right now we're undecided whether or not we'll take a break cycle or do a medicated TI cycle. Either way I think we're done with IUIs until Ben is on summer break. It's simply too stressful worry about how the schedule falls with his work. We'll have to decide by tomorrow morning, so I'll post again later.
For now, I'm searching for that silver lining in the big, m-fing stormcloud.
16 February 2010
I'm behind in my blogging ::insert shameful face here::
It's been a busy few weeks over here, so I have been sadly lacking in my blogging. I'm sorry! let me see if I can catch up quickly here. ;)
01/31-02/04 continued Gonal-f injections, but moved from 150units to 225units. Bruising from said shots just faded last week. ;)
Went in Thursday 2/4 for an u/s check and found three follies, one lefty almost to 18 and two righties between 13 and 14. Triggered next day (CD11) with IUI on CD12 (2/6). Temps confirmed O day as CD12, and I promptly was staggered that I o'd 5-6 days earlier than on Clomid cycles. Hoping and praying that is a good sign. :)
Tuesday 2-9 was the second anniversary of Ben's near death from the brain aneurysm. Spent much of the day putzing around, and praying thankfully throughout much of the day. Went to the grocery store (several hours later than planned) to get fixin's for chicken enchiladas as Ben requested that for his "birthday" dinner. Decided that store made apple pie will have to do as I don't have time for homemade now (damn you facebook).
Was blindsided by a co-worker whom I see infrequently (6-8 yrs younger than me and married for a whole 6 months) as she says to me, "Hi, Joy! Guess what?! I'm pregnant! Probably about 3 weeks, we just found out!" Picture this said with a big smile from girl and blank somewhat embarrassed look from guy since we're in the middle of the u-scan check out line and about 6 feet away from each other. Then picture a blank look from me, sort of like I just got smacked upside the head with a board, and I reply, "Wow. Well, good luck with that." And I turn back to my u-scanning unable to process anything more than "Wow."
I feel like a bit of jerk on my way home for my less than congratulatory response, but decide that I might be a jerk, but at least I wasn't the asshat who said something like, "Wow. 3 weeks, huh? Well, I hope you're not one of the 40% who miscarries their first pregnancy. You know, like I did back in Sept. a few weeks after you were married. You know, after we've been trying for a year and seeing a fertility specialist. No, really, I'm so happy to hear that you don't have any problems getting pregnant and are happy to tell someone you don't know very well and only see every now and then at work. Congrats. If I ever manage to get pregnant, oh yeah, and stay pregnant, I'll be sure to tell you first!"
Get home and realize that I completely forgot the tortillas, and we're going to have some kind of enchilada casserole concoction instead of what I planned. Thank God I have a kind husband who says, "Sounds good to me." I then look at my ute and say that there had better be a baby in there making me forget so much. Then I remind myself I'm a whole whopping 3dpo, so it's really just me being forgetful and not the fault of a phantom baby.
Spent much of next five days very tired and experiencing almost every phantom symptom known to ff and obsessive TTCers the world over. Reminded myself daily that obsessing does not make you pregnant and I need to relax because there is not a damn thing I can do other than pray. constantly.
Yesterday I missed choir because I fell asleep on the couch again for hours before my husband woke me up so I could go to bed. Spent the long walk up the stairs (it's not a long stair case, but when you're so tired you're stumbling, it takes a bit more ;) thinking about how I'll maybe test in the morning if my temp is up because I'll be 11dptrigger so it should be out of my system. Gag myself brushing my teeth (not a common occurance) and think about poasing some more. Sleep like the dead, which is good because the cats had me trapped anyways.
Wake up to a big temp drop and want to cry, but don't. Instead, try not to give up all hope, pray some more, and browse ff's chart gallery for charts with 10dpo temp drops and bfps. Spent some time on facebook and forums, and decide to update blog. Did so with incomplete sentences and poor grammar, and probably atrocious spelling.
So, that is the past few weeks in a nutshell. A rather long, rambling, and poorly crafted nutshell, but nonetheless, a nutshell. ;) I'm sorry for the babble, and the incoherency, I guess that is just how I'm feeling today. I've still got this speck of hope inside of me, but that temp drop this am has really taken the wind out of my sails. We've sort of started to look at the next month and what we'll do. We've thought more about taking a cycle break, but that EDD of May 1st is looming over my head. I'm going to be a wreck on that day if we're not pregnant by then, and I'm not looking forward to it. :( All I've got left right now is some hope and lots of prayers. And a wonderful husband to be so thankful for, so I guess I'll just count my blessings and savor them. They're a little bittersweet right now, but at least I have them. :)
01/31-02/04 continued Gonal-f injections, but moved from 150units to 225units. Bruising from said shots just faded last week. ;)
Went in Thursday 2/4 for an u/s check and found three follies, one lefty almost to 18 and two righties between 13 and 14. Triggered next day (CD11) with IUI on CD12 (2/6). Temps confirmed O day as CD12, and I promptly was staggered that I o'd 5-6 days earlier than on Clomid cycles. Hoping and praying that is a good sign. :)
Tuesday 2-9 was the second anniversary of Ben's near death from the brain aneurysm. Spent much of the day putzing around, and praying thankfully throughout much of the day. Went to the grocery store (several hours later than planned) to get fixin's for chicken enchiladas as Ben requested that for his "birthday" dinner. Decided that store made apple pie will have to do as I don't have time for homemade now (damn you facebook).
Was blindsided by a co-worker whom I see infrequently (6-8 yrs younger than me and married for a whole 6 months) as she says to me, "Hi, Joy! Guess what?! I'm pregnant! Probably about 3 weeks, we just found out!" Picture this said with a big smile from girl and blank somewhat embarrassed look from guy since we're in the middle of the u-scan check out line and about 6 feet away from each other. Then picture a blank look from me, sort of like I just got smacked upside the head with a board, and I reply, "Wow. Well, good luck with that." And I turn back to my u-scanning unable to process anything more than "Wow."
I feel like a bit of jerk on my way home for my less than congratulatory response, but decide that I might be a jerk, but at least I wasn't the asshat who said something like, "Wow. 3 weeks, huh? Well, I hope you're not one of the 40% who miscarries their first pregnancy. You know, like I did back in Sept. a few weeks after you were married. You know, after we've been trying for a year and seeing a fertility specialist. No, really, I'm so happy to hear that you don't have any problems getting pregnant and are happy to tell someone you don't know very well and only see every now and then at work. Congrats. If I ever manage to get pregnant, oh yeah, and stay pregnant, I'll be sure to tell you first!"
Get home and realize that I completely forgot the tortillas, and we're going to have some kind of enchilada casserole concoction instead of what I planned. Thank God I have a kind husband who says, "Sounds good to me." I then look at my ute and say that there had better be a baby in there making me forget so much. Then I remind myself I'm a whole whopping 3dpo, so it's really just me being forgetful and not the fault of a phantom baby.
Spent much of next five days very tired and experiencing almost every phantom symptom known to ff and obsessive TTCers the world over. Reminded myself daily that obsessing does not make you pregnant and I need to relax because there is not a damn thing I can do other than pray. constantly.
Yesterday I missed choir because I fell asleep on the couch again for hours before my husband woke me up so I could go to bed. Spent the long walk up the stairs (it's not a long stair case, but when you're so tired you're stumbling, it takes a bit more ;) thinking about how I'll maybe test in the morning if my temp is up because I'll be 11dptrigger so it should be out of my system. Gag myself brushing my teeth (not a common occurance) and think about poasing some more. Sleep like the dead, which is good because the cats had me trapped anyways.
Wake up to a big temp drop and want to cry, but don't. Instead, try not to give up all hope, pray some more, and browse ff's chart gallery for charts with 10dpo temp drops and bfps. Spent some time on facebook and forums, and decide to update blog. Did so with incomplete sentences and poor grammar, and probably atrocious spelling.
So, that is the past few weeks in a nutshell. A rather long, rambling, and poorly crafted nutshell, but nonetheless, a nutshell. ;) I'm sorry for the babble, and the incoherency, I guess that is just how I'm feeling today. I've still got this speck of hope inside of me, but that temp drop this am has really taken the wind out of my sails. We've sort of started to look at the next month and what we'll do. We've thought more about taking a cycle break, but that EDD of May 1st is looming over my head. I'm going to be a wreck on that day if we're not pregnant by then, and I'm not looking forward to it. :( All I've got left right now is some hope and lots of prayers. And a wonderful husband to be so thankful for, so I guess I'll just count my blessings and savor them. They're a little bittersweet right now, but at least I have them. :)
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