Our little angel has left us.

Yes, it is true.

We lost our little one at 6weeks, 5days, and after seeing that precious little heartbeat flickering away only 3 days before. It is bittersweet to see that ultrasound picture and know that that little life is no longer inside me. Yet I take comfort in knowing that our little angel is with God, at peace and perfect in heaven. It doesn't make the pain any easier right now, or make my weeping cease, but I trust in God and believe that this too shall pass.

I know the statistics on miscarriage, and know intimately within my family how easy it is to lose a pregnancy, but we prayed it wouldn't happen to us. I strongly believe that in a perfect world, the world the way God intended it, each life he created would be perfect and wonderful. Unfortunately, we live in a broken and imperfect world, and thus, something must have gone wrong with our little one, something that took him or her from my womb and to God.

This weekend has been rough on my husband and I, and rough on our family. But as with everything, there is hope during the storm. Ben and I have weathered so much in our few years together, and we know that we can overcome this, too. So, we grieve the loss of our little one, and then we pick ourselves up and move on, solid in our love and faith.

A song kept coming into my head while I prayed this weekend, a song that is a petition to God and a reaffirmation of faith at the same time. I couldn't always find the words I needed to say, and these words spoke my heartache for me:

God, my God, I cry out
Your beloved needs you now
God be near, calm my fear
And take my doubt

Your kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in

I will lift my eyes to the Maker
Of the mountains I can't climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer
Of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer
Of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You

God, my God, let Mercy sing
Her melody over me
God, right here all I bring
Is all of me

Your kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in

'Cause You are and You were and You will be forever
The Lover I need to save me
'Cause You fashioned the earth and You hold it together, God
So hold me now