Good news is that the husband and I had our first appointment with the RE on Tues., July 7th. That went so much better than I feared it would. The doctor has no intention of waiting around; he wants to get me started with Clomid as soon as possible to get me ovulating again. He discussed my history with us, and decided to do an ultrasound right then, which was definitly unexpected. He didn't find polycystic ovaries (which is what he was looking for), and he said that my uterus looked pretty normal to him. He gave me a script for Provera for 7 days (finished that this past Tues.) and said to start the 100mg Clomid on CD5. He would also be scheduling the next u/s and a hysterosalpingography (HSG) when I got my period. The plan is to moniter my ovaries, and if/when any follicle(s) start to develop to give me a trigger shot when it/they are ready, and then to do an interuterine insemination (IUI). This is all so much faster than I expected him to move, and the doctor explained that he used to do meds only for six months and then move to AI, but he didn't see any reason to wait. Neither do we, and I am so glad (and so nervous) about this plan. So, he also ordered some bloodwork, which mostly came back ok. He tested my fasting glucose, insulin level (fasting), Prolactin, LH, Testosterone (% free and total), and my TSH (thryoid). All of those came back within normal limits (wnl) except for my TSH which was about 6.38. That value is doubled since my blood work last October which means that my throid isn't working well. So, I'm now on 75mcg of levothyroxine and will be doing more bloodwork in a few weeks to see if the med is helping. I'm hoping this isn't a long-term deficiency, and I'm glad the doctor caught it.
Bad news is that I'm on CD75 with my last dose of Provera Tues night, roughly 36 hrs ago. I was really hoping to have started my period by now since I can't start the Clomid until CD5, and I'll take it for 5 days. I know the doctor is going to need to moniter me pretty closely once I start the meds, and things could get sticky with work in mid August if AF doesn't hurry up and get here. There will be a week mid-August where I won't be able to leave work to get to the doctor's because I'll be the only nurse on. That could be a serious logistical problem since the earliest I'll get out is 4pm and the latest is 6pm. ::sigh:: but I won't be borrowing trouble before it gets here. And I'll try not to worry about things that I have no control over. And I'll continue to pray about the whole situation because I know that God is holding this all in his loving hands.
These past few weeks have been quite the rollercoaster. Anxiety over the RE appointment, elation about the outcome, happiness that my husband's brain continues to be aneurysm free, despair over all the newly pregnant women I keep finding out about, more anxiety over my cycle, fatigue, depression, more happiness. I feel as if I've run the gamut of emotion, with so many highs and lows that some days if feels as if I'm feeling everything all at once. I can only hope and pray for the peace, strength, and trust to follow God's plan for me, for my husband, for our future. I know He is good, and I know that His timing is perfect. We have a wonderful example of that in our lives right now. My stepmom, who has stage IV ovarian cancer with a poor prognosis, just found out last week that her experimental chemotherapy treatments are working. The CT scan showed some of the spots are shrinking, and her gynoncologist was able to convince the program she is in (through Johns Hopkins) to continue the aggressive treatment. We are so very, very thankful and full of praise for this glorious news. We know she is still deep in the woods, but we also know God walks beside her leading the way. Thanks be to God for His faithfulness and His love, His mercy and compassion, for His grace.
